My new fave....

Well, I've found a new fave show... 3 lbs.

I love the characters, yes I realize that all you die hard House fans will say it's a ripoff of that show. Yes, I do see that, but I still love the show. Not to mention there are some very doable people on it.

Every year there is a show or two that I latch on to watch through the winter, this year it's medical dramas like 3lbs and House. If you haven't seen either of them yet make sure you do.

As for my little update.... Life is going great, work is good, I love my new place, my best friend Rob and I have decided to take a weekend out to his cabin to go to a vineyard to put on some wine, and the only decisions we'll make are "Red or White?" and "What time should we go to the hot springs?", it'll be fabulous. I have some people in my life going through rough times but I'm here for them and love them all and if they ever need anything they know I'm here, so it feels good to be able to help others, especially since I'm finally strong enough to not need to cling to others. It's a good feeling. Well that's it for now, I'll be posting a very 'playful' HNT tomorrow so be sure to take a look.

I hope all of you are doing well,
Hugs and kisses,
Ev

Yes, yet another song...

I heard this yesterday for the first time and it sorta reminds me of myself (especially the part about not being single for long)... Don't worry guys, not falling for anyone right now I'm enjoying being single and being able to play....tee hee


"Clumsy"
By Fergie
Along with a pic of the Oh So Doable miss Fergie herself

Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

First time
That I saw your eyes
Boy you looked right through me, mmmhmm
Play it cool
But I knew you knew
That cupid hit me, mmm mmm

You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you

Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

Can't breath
When you touch me, see
Butterflies so crazy, mmm mmm
Whoa now, think I'm goin down
Friends don't know whats with me, mmm mmm

You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you

Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

You know, this isn't the first time this has happened to me
This love sick thing
I like serious relationships and a
A girl like me dont stay single for long
Cuz everytime a boyfriend and I break up
My world is crushed and I'm all alone
The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I'm back

Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you

So in love with you
So in love with you

I recognize me again...

Anyone who's gone through something life altering, shattering, devastating... will tell you that for a time there they don't feel like themselves and for me there has been quite a while where I didn't recognize the person looking back at me in the mirror. The image in my minds eye was nothing like what I actually looked like, I found I was hiding behind my weight and I'd darkened my hair so that I wouldn't be noticed as much...well...I recognize me again.



Before...... During....... NOW
Yay, I look like me again. Hip Hip!!!!

I promised and here it is....

Here are pics of my place...

Then....




NOW.....



And one of Sheba making herself comfy on my bed...

What a single girl does on a night alone....

I decided to fulfill a lot of women's fantasies and have a candlelit bath filled with rose petals...

A very good day

I figured I should write a post about today as it was a very good day, seeing as I have one about my very bad day.
Well I had today off, we took it off to make up for Sat.

So today, I slept in and spent the day watching 24 (living life through the eyes of Jack Bower) and I went for a walk and baked cookies. Such a great day.



Also, I've recently met some really nice men and I have some dates lines up. I'm very excited. It's nice to feel desired like that... to have men meet me at events and just have to get to know me better. Tee hee. Also the best part of the way I've been meeting them is that it means that they are professionals, mostly higher ups. (I got a lot of flack for dating down) I hope that doesn't sound too shallow.... I'll keep you all posted.

Anyways, it's back to work tomorrow and then in the evening I have my masseuse coming over to give me a massage. It's nice to be able to call them to come to me rather than have to travel as that way I can be all relaxed at home. It's great. However, tomorrow night I'm supposed to be doing naughty pics of a Bettie Paige nature. I'll be sure to post one for my HNT.
Well I should be off.

Kisses, Ev

I'm over it....

Well,

I'm over my hissy fit about Neil, I figured he's just not worth my worrying about. I have far too many new people in my life to worry about one guy who's going to be a jerk to me anyways.

He still wants to talk about the cat, yet he hangs up on me everytime I try to call about her, and then he leaves me long drawn out messages about how I'm a horrible person for not giving her to him. Well I'm sorry, but I'm not trying to please him anymore so I'm not about to bring her over there without negotiation, and without me being absolutly sure he can take care of her.

But other than that I've decided to move on with my life. If he really wants the cat he can call me as I'm not going to call or anything ever again, he's not worth it.

I will however be posting pics of my new place ASAP, I've just been busy, but soon.

Love you all,
XOXO Ev

GRRRRR

The saga continues...

Here I thought things were over.

Today I decided to casually ask Brandi (my ex roomate) if my snowboard and boots were still around there as the other CM said I should just go get them as they're mine, well turns out they gave them away. Lovely, not a huge deal really, I guess my own damn fault for leaving them when I made my mad dash out of there a couple months ago.

Well, the thing that makes me gruble is that Neil decided to leave me a long winded message saying that it's over, "Well go fig!" I think when I moved my stuff out and started seeing other men, that clicked in my head. I don't want anything to do with him I just want him to stop calling people in my life and to give him his documents back. All the ones he left in my stuff. Not really much to ask.
I also have a strong feeling that he and Brandi are a couple as it's com to my attention that she gave him her cell phone when his got disconnected. Well I guess they deserve eachother.

He's still telling people I stole the cat; as far as I'm concerned the fact that all of her info and all of her paperwork has me listed as owner kinda says that she's mine, not to mention the fact that he wasn't always very nice to her.

I just wish it would all end.
Fuck you Neil!!!!!

Updates...

Well,
I may or may not post an HNT tonight. I spent last night at an event with Calgary's elite and was probably up too late so, all I can say is that it was WAY too hard to get out of bed this morning and I'm seriously considering going back there. Not to mention CM and SR have gotten me seriously addicted to 24 so I've been spending way too much time watching that. You bad boys, you!!! I guess I should have known what I was getting into when SR was telling me how addictive it is. I guess it's my own fault.

Life is going ok, I'm considering disappearing for a bit just to maintain my focus. Maybe do a yoga retreat and some meditation. As life has been pretty crazy in the last few months and I'd love to sit in the absolute quiet and re-connect with my center.

Another thing I'd like to share is that I have finally found peace with Neil's affair. I had spent almost a year hating the woman he cheated on me with and hating him for doing it. However it was after reading an e-mail from her yesterday that I was able to close that chapter of my life. I think it was the acknowledgement of her role in my suffering over the last year that did it. She had also mentioned that she to was lied to by him and that she had also made the decision to cut all contact with him. I just want to publicly thank her for that letter, it really helped, gave me a lot of closure.
There is a small part of me that's sorta glad that it all happened as if all had ran smoothly or I hadn't found out I would have married him, inspite of all the badmouthing he did to me and all the crap he put me through. So this way I'm able to meet someone who really deserves me.
Also a side note to Neil: If you're reading this and I know you do, I hope you find happiness be it with our former roomie or someone new. After you figure your life out and spend some time without a woman you'll be able to see what you really want and then I wish you the best of luck finding it.

So, there's my update, not sure what else to say.
I hope everyone is happy and healthy.
Kisses, Ev