Monday, April 30, 2007

So happy

I just wanted to tell all of you who have been reading me for the last little while that I am SO happy. I'm with an amazing man, he makes me laugh, makes me smile, and just lets me know how much he cares.
It's a fantastic feeling.


Wednesday, April 18, 2007

My confusion

Hi everyone,

I hate how people from your past can ruin you for the wonderful people of the present or future. I recently met the most amazing man, he is so wonderful to me and treats me like a princess.

I am so scared that I'm going to push him away because I have no idea what it's like to be in a normal relationship. When I was with my ex, it was almost like clockwork, things would get to that comfortable stage where it turns from the fluttery relationship to the deeper one and not a week or so later would he start telling me about how he fell out of love with me and he was having the fluttery feelings for someone else. Then somehow we'd work through it and things would be fluttery for him with me again and the cycle would repeat itself. This went on for 3 yrs until I finally moved out.
So now I am scared to death that now that things are getting comfortable with Brad (that's his name for those of you who asked) that it's going to happen all over again, but of course without the wandering eye as Brad is WAY too good to ever do that. So there's part of me that wants to back away and give him his space cause that's what would work with the ex, but I really like him and don't want him to think that I don't want to be with him.

I'm so confused, I think my past has left me broken. Help.

Monday, April 09, 2007

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Stories from my life

This has been one crazy week, not just because I've been so busy but also with some things have have happened.

We launched our province wide campaign to target the stigma that surrounds mental illness. You can check out the website and through there see the TV spots here: www.mymentalhealth.caLink
Then on Friday I saw my ex Neil. What a sad story. It's really sad that he feels the need to tell me about all his sexual conquests and all the women in his life. Yes, because that's supposed to make me jealous that you're sleeping with a bunch of women you barely know. And poor me, I'm only intimate with one man I care about rather than a bunch that I don't. lol. Sorry for the bitterness everyone, I just thought he was a tad brash.

Then after that oh so lovely incident I went to get the oil in my car changed and it turns out the place forgot to tighten the filter so all the oil leaked out and my car stalled, luckily I was near another location of the same place so they fixed it up. However I'm still taking the car to the mechanic to see if there's any damage. So now I feel a bit like that friend of a friend that someone once knew.

Had a wonderful evening with my sweetie, he's so awesome, he spoils me rotten, it's great.

But I must be off, I have to head to my lovely job for the day then who knows...

Kisses, E