Sunday, December 28, 2008

Almost 10 weeks

Hi all,

Well I'm almost 10 weeks along, only 30 more to go. 
We're starting to tell people now, which is very exciting. Although we have to have some genetic testing done on the bambino to make sure it's developing as it should as unfortunately I carry a gene that could affect that. 
That part REALLY sucks. As right now I have this little person growing inside me and not until I have the tests done will I know if it'll be ok and if I'll actually be able to carry it to term. Oh well. As such I'm trying to not get TOO attached. Unfortunately however, my regular clothes are getting a little too snug and uncomfortable so today for the very first time I'm in maternity jeans. Much more comfortable, although I feel a bit like a fraud as my belly isn't big enough to be in these yet it's getting too big to be in regular clothes. oh well.

Well I should get back, I'm just cleaning the house. But I wish everyone a happy holiday season and I hope that everyone who is trying to get pregnant does.
Here's to a happy 2009.

Love E.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Almost 8 weeks

Well, last week we went for our very first ultrasound. The 'baby' measured in at 7 Weeks 1 day, so I was dead on with the dates. Despite my last period only being 6 weeks 4 days ago.

It looks a lot more like a little blob rather than a baby.

The funny thing is, and this shows that my husband is the eternal realist, it seems when people see the ultrasound they tend to do the 'aww, so cute' to which my husband always replies, 'it's just a blob, how can it be cute?'

Oh well, I love him anyway. LOL

The whole thing is still very surreal as yes, we saw the heartbeat, it was very strong for it's 7 weeks, but it's still odd to think I have this little person growing inside me. Oh well, I'm sure in few months when I start to feel it kick it'll feel more like I'm in on of the Alien movies. So I should probably just enjoy it while I can.

Friday, December 05, 2008

6 weeks down 34 to go

Well as of wednesday I am officicially 6 weeks pregnant.
It's been very wild. The morning sickness has gotten worse and become anytime of the day sickness, I'm ready for a nap by 2 pm. Along with many other delights.

The scaryest part is that no matter how many times you read that something is perfectly normal like light cramping, as long as it doesn't go along with bleeding or spotting, it's still very un-nerving. As such I have an ultrasound scheduled for Thursday afternoon. It'll be 7 weeks so we should be able to 'hear' the heartbeat, more like see it, and we should be able to see our little 'embie' (We've gone and nicknamed it Embie for now)

I am so scared of miscarrying that everytime I go to the bathroom I double check. I think it's a product of reading too many things online. As, yes it's a 15 -25% chance but it's an 75 - 85% chance everything will be fine. I think the biggest problem has to do with just how many people there are online. That even if something was to happen 1% of the time there is still thousands of people to create webpages and be in message boards to talk about it. I'm also scared to death that the ultrasound will reveal that there's no baby, just an empty sac, known as a blighted ovum, as this happens in 50% of all miscarriages. Yeah I know 50% of 15-25%, so 7.5 -12.5% of the time. I know I'm paranoid, but I'll know more after thursday. I promise if everything comes back normal on Thursday then I'm done over researching everything and am just going to enjoy my pregnancy, every cramp, and burp of it.

But for now, I'm crossing my fingers.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008


Well I guess I should update everyone after my last post. I did go home that night and take a test, and it was positive!!!!

So yeah, I'm expecting. Hip hip.

I've already had my first Dr's appointment, had what will probably be the first of many viles of blood drawn, uggg. And I still feel sick. :( Oh well.

So I thought I'd update.

I'll keep you all posted.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

15 dpo and counting

Well I'm officially 15 dpo, I haven't taken a test yet because I figured I'd wait it out until AF was actually late. So pretty much if she doesn't show up today I'll be testing in the morning. Talk about a stressful day. I've already ran to the bathroom about 6 times just to double check and every tummy twinge makes me think it's over.

I will say though, the only good thing about her showing would be that my bbs would no longer be sore and the nausea would go away.

I keep telling hubby everything I'm going through and he keeps insisting that he doesn't want to get his hopes up so he doesn't want to know.

I will say though my body sure does like to play tricks if I'm not preggo, here are my symptoms:

  • My bbs are killing me, not so much sore to the touch but I'm VERY aware that they're there.

  • I've thrown up or almost thrown up 3 times in the last week, but have been nauseated every day
  • I wake up tired everyday
  • I've started crying and getting upset at stupid things
  • One big thing is the lack of spotting and cramping yesterday, usually I get both the day before but not this month.
  • Oh and the heartburn and gas, ugggg, sorry TMI

  • I've been charting and it went VERY noticeably triphasic, (first time ever) See below. Any insight would be appreciated.

Thanks. Cross your fingers for me.


Thursday, November 06, 2008


Hi everyone,

Well, I've decided to finally share this as it's causing me a lot of stress and maybe someone can offer advice to help.

Me and hubby have decided to start trying for a baby, we're only on the third cycle now but I'm already worrying that it might not happen. No real reason why, kinda just the way I am. Just like last year when I applied to get into a very exclusive post secondary design program. The program only accepts 50 people out of the hundreds of applications they get every year. I was so convinced I wasn't going to get in that I almost didn't go to my interview. Well low and behold, I got in, in the very first round. Needless to say I got offered a job I couldn't refuse at the same time but it was a giant complement to be accepted that readily. 

So this is kinda why I'm feeling the way I am. Yes I get that most people don't get preg for a few months, but it's an excruciating wait. I've even gone so far as to looking into how much fertility treatments cost. 

Also, to make maters worse, there is a woman I work quite closely with at work who's pregnant with twins, and she keeps bugging me saying the regular "When are you having kids?" "I bet you're pregnant already and aren't telling us" then the one that hurt the worst "We got pregnant on the very first try, I'm sure you will too". How do I tell her... Yeah, um we've been trying for a little while and nothing. 

I guess it's just my life for the next little while, taking my temperature everyday and crossing my fingers.

So any support anyone can give me would be much appreciated.


Monday, October 13, 2008

Hitched etc.

Hi everyone,

Well we got hitched on August 15. It went wonderfully.

The weather was wonderful, my only complaint is that it could have been 5-10 degrees cooler. So really there's nothing to complain about.

It was a beautiful evening ceremony, we had it outside on the banks of Hector lake, the mountains in the background. I walked down a red carpet to an archway.

There we're about 100 guests, small enough to talk to everyone, large enough to have all of our fave people.

It was truly amazing. Couldn't have asked for anything nicer.

It's now been 2 months. We're still married.... tee hee

Lots has happened in the last couple months. We bought a bigger place, a townhouse, so it's double the size of our current condo and it'll have a yard an everything. And of course plenty of room for little ones.... tee hee.

I'll keep you posted on it.

Here's hoping everyone is having a happy and loving thanksgiving or Columbus day.

Love Ev

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

8 days

Hi everyone,

well it's only 8 little days until the wedding. Crazy.
Not too big of a deal though, we have all the big things taken care of, the dress the marriage commissioner, the venue, food etc. Now it's just the little things like seating charts etc.

It's been a bit of a roller coaster. I don't think you can truly understand unless you've been married. There are so many emotions you go through, the loss of your life as a single, your becoming a 'we', and people start acting different. Your single friends don't call as much because they don't want to be reminded that they're single. Then there are all the friends who are in relationships. I can't tell you how many people have said "Congrats, now if only I can get X to propose" or "Oh, you were engaged after 8 months, we'll I've been with X for 8 years and still no ring". How do you even respond to that?

All in all I'm thrilled. I'm marrying the most perfect man for me in the whole world. I can't believe I even thought of spending my life with my ex. I guess I saved a divorce lawyer a lot of time.

That's really what it comes down to. I can't imagine not waking up next to Andrew for the rest of my life. I am truly happy.

Love E

P.S. I'll be sure to post pics.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Put a smile on my face why don't ya...

Hi everyone,

Wow, I've gotten really bad at this blogging thing.

I remember when I was with my ex and I blogged constantly. I think one of the reasons was because I was being emotionally abused and neglected and blogging helped my self esteem. Also all the numerous comments and cheers I would get from fellow bloggers really helped to pull me out.

However, on to better things. I'm getting MARRIED. It's less than 2 months until my wedding, we're getting hitched on Aug 15. I'm just a tad stressed, said with sarcasm of course. But i think it'll be great, I'm REALLY happy.

Now for the real reason for this post. I'll gush about the wedding later I promise. I got an e-mail today from a young man giving me an amazing complement. He said he reads my blog and is absolutely in love with my calves. tee hee. I love it. It made me feel so good. So thank you.

I have to run to meet hubby, but I'm going to try to post more often. Might be a tad hard soon as on Saturday I'm going to be for a 3 week vacation. Odd timing I know. Ahh well.

Talk to you all soon.
Kisses, E

Sunday, March 30, 2008


Hey everyone,

Well here's my news for the next little bit.

I'm moving in with Andrew. I'm super excited. We move into the Brand New place on May first, and when I say Brand New I don't mean new to us, it was just built. So Brand new condo that we get to make into our home. I'm totally in love.

I'm possibly, depending on how well my portfolio will be received, quitting work and going back to school full time to do web design. Hip hip.

And I guess those are the big things. Mind you they are huge ones.

I hope I didn't make too may people worry with my lack of posting. I'll try to be better.