Wednesday, April 18, 2007

My confusion

Hi everyone,

I hate how people from your past can ruin you for the wonderful people of the present or future. I recently met the most amazing man, he is so wonderful to me and treats me like a princess.

I am so scared that I'm going to push him away because I have no idea what it's like to be in a normal relationship. When I was with my ex, it was almost like clockwork, things would get to that comfortable stage where it turns from the fluttery relationship to the deeper one and not a week or so later would he start telling me about how he fell out of love with me and he was having the fluttery feelings for someone else. Then somehow we'd work through it and things would be fluttery for him with me again and the cycle would repeat itself. This went on for 3 yrs until I finally moved out.
So now I am scared to death that now that things are getting comfortable with Brad (that's his name for those of you who asked) that it's going to happen all over again, but of course without the wandering eye as Brad is WAY too good to ever do that. So there's part of me that wants to back away and give him his space cause that's what would work with the ex, but I really like him and don't want him to think that I don't want to be with him.

I'm so confused, I think my past has left me broken. Help.

2 comments:

Blissfully Wed said...

Life just can't be simple, can it? No advice here, but I wish you the best.

Thinking on certain things a little less has often worked for me though.

~Him

Midwestern City Boy said...

Life CAN be simple. Don't over-analyze things. Sometimes, when your first dating someone that you care about, it really is that easy. There are always complicating factors; but don't go looking for them. Wait for them to appear on their own. You might be surprised how few you actually encounter.