Sunday, December 24, 2006

Christmas cheer and jeers...

Well, some of you already know that I've pretty much been the Christmas grinch this year, I don't hate the holiday or anything, It's a great holiday. It just really sucks when you're newly single and having regrets for things that happened during your last relationship.

While my sins weren't the straws that broke the camels back, I'm sure they affected the over all relationship. Kinda like that age old butterfly analogy... You know the whole ripple effect thing.

This leaves me wondering if I actually deserve to have a decent normal relationship, you know the ones where you go on a few dates, then there's a bit of kissing, and it slowly progresses to bliss. I think I may have tainted my whole life, even if I do meet my prince, I'll still have to one day fess up to all the relationship misdemeanors I've committed over the course of the last 5 yrs.

Is there a way to atone for the dating crimes we commit? A way to wipe the slate clean?

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

My life and Sex and the City...

I was having a conversation with some friends the other day, (We formed a 'singles support group', basically an excuse to drink). We were talking about how the lives of singles relate to Sex and the City, and suggested that the guys in the group rent the DVDs and watch them.

This got me thinking, my life has really been a lot like that of Carrie:

I have my Mr Big, that irresistible man who I've fallen head over heels for and would drop everything for, but isn't able to make a commitment to me. Yet every time I try to end things he says the right thing to keep me around.

I almost married my Aidan, the sweet homebody type guy, who would prefer to live in the mountains than in the city, yet I always knew I could do much better, but for a while I settled.

For those of you who watch the show, you'll understand when I say that quite a few of plot twists and turns that relate to the three of them have happened to me over the last while.

Also I used to work as a columnist, and now I work in communications, but still quite similar.

I guess if my life is destined to follow the show I now need to find my Russian Artist who can sweep me off my feet and move me to Paris only to have my Mr Big follow me. I guess we'll see.

I just found it odd how similar my life is... I guess life imitates art.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

The best and the worst

Here's a listing of the 10 best things about my being single and living alone

  1. I can go out with whoever I want
  2. I can stay out as late as I want
  3. Don't have to worry about what someone else likes food-wise
  4. I can spend my mornings naked
  5. Rent any movie I want
  6. Watch the shows I want and not have to compete with a PS2
  7. Nobody else is spending my $
  8. Decorate however I want
  9. I can see different men in the same week
  10. I have a lot more $ now that I'm not paying anyone else bills

    Here's a listing of the 10 worst things about my being single and living alone
  1. I have to clean up my own messes
  2. There's no chance I'll have dinner waiting for me
  3. Sometimes it gets too quiet
  4. No chance for sex everyday (Not that I got that when I was with me ex either)
  5. Nobody to snuggle with every night while sleeping
  6. I have to bring stuff in by myself, nobody to help
  7. I have to do all the cleaning myself
  8. ?
  9. ?
  10. ?
    As you can see it's much harder for me to find bad things about my life right now, see I'm open to a relationship. I think the fact that I'm happy with my life and myself I'd make a great partner, but I'm really enjoying this living alone thing. It's nice to do what I want, when I want. So there you have it.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

My new PT gig

Hey everyone....

I just got a new PT job, and no it's not for the $ , all though there is nothing wrong with $ it's for the discount!!!

I just got a job at IKEA. Hip hip. So yeah I'm only working a day or two a week but it'll save me hundreds furnishing my place exactly how I want.

Hip hip, not to mention the extra $ will be for toys like a 36' LCD tv and....... The list is endless.

So wish me luck, I start training on Sat.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Been tagged....

I was tagged by moonspells: I was told she tagged me because she was interested in what I'd write, I hope I don't disappoint.

"6 Weird Things About Me"

The rules are simple.
1. Each player of this game starts with the “6 weird things about you”.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says “you are tagged” in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

1) I was right handed until grade 3, when I decided I wanted to be different from everyone else and started writing with my left and now I'm ambidextrous.

2)I intend to have kids in the next 5 yrs with or without a man. (Not really weird more self assured)
Hope this one didn't freak anyone out, not something I'm think about right now, but before I'm 35. So no worries.

3) If I'm eating a twix or another wafer type chocolate bar I eat the chocolate off it first, then the center. I also lick chips before eating them.

4)I have a net over my bed, I have this fantasy to have sex enclosed in a bed with drapes or netting, so when i got my own room it was one of the first things I put up.

5) I don't find this weird, but a lot of other people I know do... I'm one of the few people I know who have have completely unemotional sex with someone I know and have it not mess anything up.

6) I don't like raw tomatoes by themselves yet I'll eat them in things, even if they are in a sandwich. It's a texture thing.

Now who to tag.... I tag Barefoot mistress, Phain, Osbasso, Brandi, Lee Ann, and Midwestern City Boy

Saturday, December 02, 2006

My weekend...

So far this has been a really awesome weekend, and it's just Sat morning. It's really nice to actually get some stuff done before noon.

-See, I got a really awesome complement from a very new but very close friend, we were talking about our past relationships and what happened between Neil and I came up and he said without a second of hesitation "He had everything...why would he want to fuck it up like that?" It just felt really nice to hear that from another man.

- I did my very own car maintenance today, I cleaned out the battery posts as they had some corrosion. And a buddy of mine is going to get me some anti-corrosion spray so that I won't have to keep doing it.

- Tonight I'm having dinner with a good friend then going out dancing.

So yeah all in all it's making out to be a great weekend. Hip hip.