Sunday, December 24, 2006

Christmas cheer and jeers...

Well, some of you already know that I've pretty much been the Christmas grinch this year, I don't hate the holiday or anything, It's a great holiday. It just really sucks when you're newly single and having regrets for things that happened during your last relationship.

While my sins weren't the straws that broke the camels back, I'm sure they affected the over all relationship. Kinda like that age old butterfly analogy... You know the whole ripple effect thing.

This leaves me wondering if I actually deserve to have a decent normal relationship, you know the ones where you go on a few dates, then there's a bit of kissing, and it slowly progresses to bliss. I think I may have tainted my whole life, even if I do meet my prince, I'll still have to one day fess up to all the relationship misdemeanors I've committed over the course of the last 5 yrs.

Is there a way to atone for the dating crimes we commit? A way to wipe the slate clean?


Midwestern City Boy said...

Of course you deserve to have a normal relationship. Everyone does. And you should never "fess up" about perceived past crimes to your new partner. The past is in the past and should stay there. He should judge you by how you act today with him, not for things that happened before he met you. Don't fall into the tarp of thinking that since you're not perfect (no one is) that you don't deserve the best. And so far as wiping the dating state clean. It always starts fresh when you date someone new so long as YOU don't let the past creep in.

Merry Christmas E. My best to you this holiday season.

Osbasso said...

I have many of the same questions as you, and have dealt with the same issues, but in a different way. But I agree with MCB--everyone deserves a normal relationship. And it's going to come in spite of whatever is in the past. Ultimately, it's going to be up to you to make peace with your "image", if you will. The rest of us see a pretty decent person!

Have a very Merry Christmas, E! You deserve it!