I spent the evening with a couple of very close friends and after spending a night laughing things feel a lot better. There's still a lot going through my head but it's nice to get a break. Thanks guys.
Well this is my 100th post.
You're probably all expecting celebratory cheers and such, but not today. Sorry.
Sometimes in an effort to make yourself look stronger you put on a tough front, you tell the world that everything is great and that you're so extremely happy that they should all hope to be like you one day. However, deep inside you're not ok.
Someone new and special in my life (TS) asked me the other day if I was lonely, of course I brushed it off and was like "nah, I'm fine", but I got to thinking about what he asked and yeah I am. There's really nothing like silence to get you thinking about what's missing in your life. I know things are really good for me compared to some.
Poor TS has problems I just wish I could brush away and make everything better.
My ex is in rehab for an addiction that took over his life and I found out that it almost ended it.
There are people starving, people in much worse situations than me.
So why is it then that I'm throwing my very own pity party? I don't know the answer to that. Probably just because I was canceled on twice today, so I'm feeling a tad rejected.
I just hope things get better soon.