Saturday, March 03, 2007

Post #100, the good, the bad and the sometimes ugly

*******Update********
12:48am-
I spent the evening with a couple of very close friends and after spending a night laughing things feel a lot better. There's still a lot going through my head but it's nice to get a break. Thanks guys.


*****Original post*****
Well this is my 100th post.

You're probably all expecting celebratory cheers and such, but not today. Sorry.

Sometimes in an effort to make yourself look stronger you put on a tough front, you tell the world that everything is great and that you're so extremely happy that they should all hope to be like you one day. However, deep inside you're not ok.

Someone new and special in my life (TS) asked me the other day if I was lonely, of course I brushed it off and was like "nah, I'm fine", but I got to thinking about what he asked and yeah I am. There's really nothing like silence to get you thinking about what's missing in your life. I know things are really good for me compared to some.
Poor TS has problems I just wish I could brush away and make everything better.

My ex is in rehab for an addiction that took over his life and I found out that it almost ended it.

There are people starving, people in much worse situations than me.

So why is it then that I'm throwing my very own pity party? I don't know the answer to that. Probably just because I was canceled on twice today, so I'm feeling a tad rejected.
I just hope things get better soon.

4 comments:

Blissfully Wed said...

It seems that we live in similar worlds. We have a good sense of perspective (our problems are the wishful dreams of so many), but it doesn't mean we don't have merit to our own personal sadness or loneliness.

Keep the chin up and all that.

~Him

Osbasso said...

Aww...big hugs and congrats. It's hard not to feel lonely at times. What Blissfully said--chin up, etc., etc...

EBEZP said...

As above!
Take care

Midwestern City Boy said...

It can always get worse; but that doesn't mean that it's not going to get better. Tomorrow is another day. And I know it will be a better one for you. Keep your head up!